loneliness - by kavitha
http://hubpages.com/hub/another-impulsive-poem-on-lonelinessI'm at a party
And friends are having fun
I'm in the midst of it all
Yet so far away.
I'm at home
It's festival time
All loved ones are gathered
Having merry time
I'm there too
Yet so far away.
My friend calls out to me
My mother yells out my name
But the only call I respond to
The only call I can hear
Is that of loneliness
sylvia says:i could relate to the one at the party but not at home. loneliness is not a situation rather a state of the mind. i could be surrounded by poeple yet feeling lonely; or i could be alone yet never has the idea of loneliness crossing my mind.
Aloneness Sets In...by
Glenda A BixlerTuesday, December 09, 2008
http://www.authorsden.com/visit/viewPoetry.asp?id=243658It nearly startled me
as it covered in its way
that aloneness set in
why did it choose today.
I've fought through the blues
shared passions as needed
walked through darkness
as if the route had been seeded.
Some days zip on by
others hang on like a bad dream.
Every ounce of strength drained
when emotions reached extreme.
Aloneness sets in at will
even in the midst of a crowd.
Smiling with a face of joy
as loneliness cries out loud.
I am mostly happy
but must past through the blues
At times it is just too much
far more than I can use.
Why did it come today
in the middle of a big to-do.
No matter what I was doing
my mind just wouldn't leave you.
Thanksgiving was a blast
till night fall slipped on in
There it was like an invasion
that loneliness back again.
If tears could build a stairway
and memories a lane
I'd walk right up to heaven
and bring you home again *
Del Cano 2008 December
* verse was found on a keepsake
Author unknown.
sylvia says:yes i can't agree more with the author, whoever he/she is. sometimes emotions just come and go without any signals, sometimes they scare me off and lead me wondering if there's soemthing wrong with me. i pity people around me--if they are sensitive enough to have noticed my change of emotions. i dare not ask for full acceptance as i know it is not easy and they are not obliged to do so. that is why i trully appreciate those who have shown me their kindness especially when i myself did not know what to do with me at that point of time.
i have a friend who is really hot-tempered but i only found out years after we have chosen to move onto different paths. i was surprised and asked for the reason why i was never at the receiving-end of the outburst. the answer? i quote - "in a relationship there ought to be a person who is willing to let go part of the 'self' and i don't want you to change who you are, just be yourself. and so i made some adjustments, not changing myself but adjusting my steps to catch up with your tempo." unquote. honestly i was speechless n touched upon hearing that. from that moment,i promised myself that i would be more sensitive and patient with the ones i care in life for i don't want to be so 'blind' again.
err... i'm a bit lost now, not sure what to write or how to express my state of mind at this stage of life. i am away from home, living in a city which i used to see it as my second home away from home. and yet this time around i found that i have to adapt and adopt in many aspects of life, and though i seem to be doing fine externally yet at times i still feel alienated internally. i guess those holy christians would say it's because i have yet to find my inner peace... that could be it. when i look around me, others seem to be adjusting themselves perfectly well and could live happily ever after... or they are actually experiencing what i'm going through? i do not know. we have grown too polite to ask others on how their feelings are and things like that, we do not want to intrude others' life or privacy...
there's no one like family members where i could tell tale exaggerately yet they'd understand that i'm not a snob or arrogant
i can cry without shame in front of them yet they'd understand that i just need to channel my emotions out
and i long for a hug when i'm down, but i can't just go out and simple hug someone...
and i long for a shoulder to rest upon when i'm tired, but i can't just go out and rest on any shoulders...
and i long...
有时侯"伤害"是这样的:外表完整无缺,内在支离破碎. [红胶囊.凉风的味道-"伤害"]
朋友一再的告诉我说:现在的一切都是必经阶段,一切都会过去的.这些我都明白,而我也一直都在很努力的调整与适应.因为明白其实每个人都有自己的烦恼,不能总是让别人为自己操心.我内心尚完好无缺,我尚未失望,但我恳求无比的勇气与力量以支撑我渡过这段必定会成为过去的现在.
坚强的人只有在离开人群,独自一人的时候才想起来自己其实不过是个脆弱的小孩.[红胶囊.凉风的味道-"坚强"]
我相信每个人心里都住着一个小孩,这个小孩也许胆小\也许大胆\也许稚气\也许老成\也许任性\也许霸道\也许温柔\也许...但并不是每个人都相信大人里住着小孩这回事,对他们来说:长大了就该有大人的样子,什么年龄就该有那个年龄的担待.
也许这是为什么我会一直记住与一个朋友的相处片段,因为对方一眼就能看见自己内心的小孩,并且接受她.在旁人都只看见坚强果断的我时,对方看见了在喧哗的人群中手足无措的自己,并不露痕迹的为我解围,而这样的看透让我深深的感激并感动.他没有说'你应该不是这样的...',也没有不相信向来看起来独立的我也会觉得无助--单凭这一点就值得万分的感激了.而在我认为能了解我的朋友中, 这位朋友从不是其中一位--讽刺吧?!
Never mind, i'm flying back in a few days time
I WILL BE HOME, and that's all that matters.
